so, its coming up on a year being in mexico city. it wasnt what i had planned on. I was intending on being home in Oakland or someplace but a las the plague and people behaving badly kind of got in the way.

FangDuo moved out on Monday back to China. I was and still am completely in love with her. She left me little notes around the house which were very endearing but I am still confused why things couldnt be different. I dont get it. I would have done a lot to fix that situation but a las I dont know what happened. I would have done crazy awesome things for this person I shit you not. I will probably never see this person again and in many ways that is kind of sad. She didnt want to go back to China and she was slowly coming into her own not being in that red state.

I dont know, something weird happened there and I am not sure what it was. I wish her the best and all the happiness life can give her. She is an amazing person, like holy shit amazing. If she reached out to me I would get on a plane in a snap. Not kidding, the apartment isnt the same without her and she is very much missed.

With that being said lets reflect on the past year.

The spaniard, amazing in her own right, doesnt get me and refuses to participate in any reconciliation. This is sad too because I am not really asking for all that much here. Communication. I guess i will never get that either. Also, after some research she has turned out to be kind of a jerk and just another in a long line who don’t get me and lie about everything. So, always forward.

School has been rough. I am stuck in level four spanish because my brain is having a hard time remembering stuff. I count that up to too many concussions and brain surgeries.

I study my ass off but I cant get the right amount of practice in so I can’t remember everything. Also, I am terrible as tests. I totally get concepts and all but I just dont use the words enough.

I am going back to one more semester in January for seven weeks. If I dont pass it this time I dont know what I am going to do. Whats odd though was I was in Columbia and Ecuador and was speaking ok. I guess I just need to dive right in.

I did get some travel in this year.I tried to slip the trips in where I thought maybe there would be a less of a covid risk and I think I did a good job.

Diving in the La Paz? Whale sharks? That was amazing.

Diving Galapagos? Seeing Bogota? Walking around Quayaquil? Just awesome. I have never seen so many sharks in my life. It was an amazing experience and it will be hard to top.

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I want to go to the Salar de Uyuni salt flats in Bolivia. I dont think that is going to happen any time soon. I was going to fly home for the holiday but the plague is going nuts in the United States.

I have been pretty much staying in my apartment and not socializing. I leave the house to get food, run a couple errands and ride my bike hard for three days. I barely talk to anyone. I avoid crowds and pretty much stay to myself.

I have to say, it has gotten a little lonely doing the right thing all the time. Most things can be delivered and there really isnt any interaction with people.

I dont know what I am going to do with myself. I cant stay here forever. I mean, CDMEX is really nice, dont get me wrong, but what else am I going to do? I cant move back to the states unless I get help from my family (or if Cali was an option but it isnt and wont be since she wont just call me, which is all i asked). I need to find another job but that wont happen in the current world situation.

So many details…this whole situation is a little depressing.

Holidays in Mexico City I guess.

Yeah, I dont know what I am going to do…