so…many of you may or may not know this but at one point recently, i was engaged…for the first time in my life.

but there was a problem and it wasnt getting fixed. i am all about open honest communication. in the past i havent been like that but now it is priority number one. i have made my mistakes and tried my best to learn from them and be a better person. i am in a better place now than i have ever been.

so, i would communicate my concerns. they went unheard/ignored. no change was coming. no help to make the relationship healthy. so, even before the engagement, i kept leaving because of the same set of reasons, she wouldnt communicate with me. she wouldnt just talk with me, hear my concerns and then help correct them.

honestly she made me feel terrible all the time.

it came to a point in they engagement when all these things came together and i felt even worse than i have.

on top of it, because of my being in mexico and going to school, she wouldnt facetime me, call me daily or any of the usual things you do when you are apart.

i couldnt take it anymore and left.

but, then i said, this person is pretty amazing in so may ways, why not try again? so, i reached out again and took a fresh approach with the relationship.

nothing changed at all. she doesnt hear me. she accuses me of things i dont do. she doesnt want to grow and be better together and blames me for all the failings in our relationship.

she takes no responsibility for her behavior. for someone who says they love me as much they say they dont act like it.

so, i told her, i am here. when you are ready to talk, REALLY talk, and take my concerns seriously, call me.

she won’t. you cant change people.

i would rather be alone than in a bad relationship. i have had too many bad ones.